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Today I wrote a big post about my Project 99. Part of that is also some goals in freediving. While last year it was all about finding fun again in freediving, this year it’s time again to set some goals and do some competitions as well.
Freediving goals are more clear. 4 minute static in water, 100 meter dynamic with fins and a 75 meter dynamic without fins before the end of the project.
The above is what I wrote down about freediving. For me these are some big numbers. To be clear: I don’t care if I do these performances during competition or training, I just want to do them!
I didn’t mention anything about depth, but that was on purpose. I still have a long standing goal of reaching 50 meters on my own power, but what is more importantly this year is consisting training in the deep again. And not only that, it’s also time to freedive deep in some clear water again with other freedivers! Maybe time for a freediving vacation to Dahab or Greece later this year.
It’s been a while since I really set some freediving goals, but I like the feeling and motivation it gives me again. So let’s start January with regular pool training on Thursday evening with the mono and starting the session with a static. And from there I’m going to work it up in the coming weeks.
I used to be eager to compete and never created any pressure for myself, showing just a performance for me. Nowadays I tend to create such a pressure field that on the day of the competition I even have cranky morning and have no interest in competing what so ever. That’s when it struck me and after quite a few promises in earlier competitions that I would not compete for a while I still continued to inscribe myself… Getting close to National Record level performances and coming up first in Huy (BE), just made it worse…
Subconscious I started thinking I could break National records and show international worthy performances in competitions. But to be able to compete at such a level, the road to it just isn’t that uncomplicated as my mind likes to think. Why are my thoughts suddenly filled with these ideas, while I know that a record is only a record and only stands for a certain amount of time. Like Jorg and I agreed long ago, that whenever my personal best would exceed a national record, the fact that I would perform a personal best is the most important thing.
All these thoughts aren’t beneficial to my performances, especially when my mind couldn’t stop thinking about it. Distracting me from my actual goal in freediving: Getting satisfaction from training hard, performing to my own limits (…and beyond) while having fun in doing so.
Long story short…
I just want to find my fun and joy in freediving again, do my thing and find out why I’m able to freedive when I’m on a total different approach. I will take a step back and I won’t be competing in any competitions for a while. I’ll continue freediving, but with the goal I intentionally started freediving in 2003.
So it’s back to the drawing board for Sanne Buurma!