Step back; take a break

20070319_Heemstede_10.jpgI used to be eager to compete and never created any pressure for myself, showing just a performance for me. Nowadays I tend to create such a pressure field that on the day of the competition I even have cranky morning and have no interest in competing what so ever. That’s when it struck me and after quite a few promises in earlier competitions that I would not compete for a while I still continued to inscribe myself… Getting close to National Record level performances and coming up first in Huy (BE), just made it worse…

20061021_wiesbaden_21.jpgSubconscious I started thinking I could break National records and show international worthy performances in competitions. But to be able to compete at such a level, the road to it just isn’t that uncomplicated as my mind likes to think. Why are my thoughts suddenly filled with these ideas, while I know that a record is only a record and only stands for a certain amount of time. Like Jorg and I agreed long ago, that whenever my personal best would exceed a national record, the fact that I would perform a personal best is the most important thing.

All these thoughts aren’t beneficial to my performances, especially when my mind couldn’t stop thinking about it. Distracting me from my actual goal in freediving: Getting satisfaction from training hard, performing to my own limits (…and beyond) while having fun in doing so.

Long story short
backtothedrawingboard.jpgI just want to find my fun and joy in freediving again, do my thing and find out why I’m able to freedive when I’m on a total different approach. I will take a step back and I won’t be competing in any competitions for a while. I’ll continue freediving, but with the goal I intentionally started freediving in 2003.

So it’s back to the drawing board for Sanne Buurma!

9 thoughts on “Step back; take a break”

  1. hey sanne, whats this? I’ve been expecting your report on last sunday’s competition, but instead I get a whinge about giving up freediving?? hey just kidding! 🙂 But seriously, don’t worry about it so much. After competing for the first time I have to admit that while its not really the thing I like about freediving, it can still be fun. Hey, my static was bad and a bit embarrassing, but I enjoyed my dynamic simply because I had a plan and put it into action. OK, you have to be ready for the unexpected (Kostas’ fins getting tangled in the starting line?) but still you can control a lot if things…… so maybe you need to focus on the method instead of on the result…?

    ps I’m gonna try and make training on thursday but I’ll txt u and let you know if I can’t…..cheers

  2. I am still waiting for a picture from Kostas, who might have some footage of you, as you featured the pictures with him in it 😉

    I will post the story after this comment, so you can read what you expected 😛

    That’s exactly what I’m gonna do indeed, focus on method instead of result.

    I had a good time coaching you both and didn’t think your static sucked, it was an all new way of doing static for you both.

    Yeah let me know for thursday!

  3. He Sanne,

    It was great meeting you and like I told you in Eindhoven, I have been reading bits of your blog since I started freediving in 2007, saw your training video’s, learning off your training approach etc. Your way of training and the passion that you have for the sport and offcourse your performances makes you one of the top freedivers in the Netherlands. And now I read that you want to “stop” competing for a while, I think that’s o.k., But now comes the hard part. I believe that 40% of freediving is physical, training your body to perform at it’s best when neccesary, and 60% of it is mental, learning to deal with your mind and its thoughts. Freediving for me is pushing myself to the limit both physically and especcially mentally and they both need training, they both need to grow, need to develop and finaly come together in balance. For there is only one opponent when you hold your breath and that’s you (‘re mind). Sometimes you win, and sometimes you lose. I hope you find your way, untill we meet again,

    good luck to you,

    Danny Martherus

  4. Hi Sanne,

    I’m sorry the competition didn’t work out for you again.

    I noticed something after your static and dynamic and I know this does not sound nice and maybe even sarcastic. I assure you it is not ment that way!

    But after both performanced you had (as far as I could tell) the right attitude that you might have been looking for before the competition. You looked a bit down obviously but most of all you looked strong, knowing what you want and most of all determined to do what you enjoyed most.

    Eric

  5. Thanks for your replies, this really is a thing I have to figure out during the time ahead.

    @Danny: Nice to meet you as well and I couldn’t agree more when you say that the most of freediving comes down to freediving with yourself as opponent or ally. I’ll be working on this and hope to find some rest in the fact Eric put away the DNF record pretty far 😉

    @Eric: I’m open for suggestions, observations and criticism so do not apologize ;). It helps me to know people are reading my blogs and they help me in my way of freediving. And you’re right to have noticed my determination in just competing and doing so at comfortable levels and not challenging myself.

  6. Hi Sanne,

    Good decision. Competing is one but enjoying freediving is more importend. Hope to see you in Maarsseveen in juni for some fun dives 😉

    Ciao Peter

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